Jonathan Martin’s Important Facebook Message Should Be Required Reading In Schools
There's a great scene in the movie Super 8 which has really stuck with me -- even more than the ones with the kid who has a backpack stuffed with fireworks and is constantly trying to blow shit up. It's when our protagonist, Joe, is watching an old home movie of his late mother:
"She used to look at me... this way, like really look, and I just knew I was there... that I existed."
And that's all that any of us really want: to be seen for who we really are, and to get out from under the weight of other people's expectations and prejudices and other bullshit, and just ... exist. That's all Jonathan Martin ever wanted, and could never seem to get. The former Dolphins and 49ers lineman, who retired from the NFL this offseason after being cut by San Francisco, more or less opened his soul. Among other things, he revealed that he attempted suicide multiple times while in the NFL, as he trued to make sense of his place in the league, and in the world.
"Your job leads you attempt to kill yourself on multiple occasions. Your self-perceived social inadequacy dominates your every waking moment and thought. You're petrified of going to work. You either sleep 12, 14, or 16 hours per day or not at all. You drink too much, smoke weed constantly, have trouble focusing on doing your job, playing the sport that you grew up obsessed with."
It's all right here.
If you don't know... Now you know pic.twitter.com/hE3vimkXdu
— Jonathan A. Martin (@J_Martin71) August 26, 2015
This should be required reading for kids, if for no other reason that it shows that even someone who has made it to the NFL may be struggling with the same emotional baggage that they do. You can achieve your dream and still be confused by life, and that's OK, because life is a process. The Richie Incignitos of the world are always going to be there, and the more you let them define you, the worse things are going to be. All that really matters is, as Martin wrote, "your family, a few close friends and your own personal happiness."
Whether this message by Martin was cathartic or a further cry for help or just meant to help others, it's important, and everyone should read it.
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